Poem · Poetry

God is the master artist

You create

I can only imitate.

You are the only one

Creating a masterpiece 

every moment.

How is it possible

That your glory be denied?

How can someone

Be so far from the truth?

One sunset, one sunrise

Can change a life.

Here’s hoping

You continue being the artist

And I keep getting inspired

To imitate you.

After sunset glow in the sky
Full moon at Del Mar
Beautiful day at Lake Poway Park
Poem · Poetry · Spiritual

When a monk dies

When a monk dies

What does he leave behind?

Only love

Only teachings

Only a way out

Of this world of illusions

.

When a monk dies

How does that make one feel?

Oprhaned

Abandoned

Alone

Reminding us that

It’s time to live the teachings

It’s time to grow up

.

Dedicated to Thich Nhat Hanh (1926-2022)

Healing · music

Root chakra healing when facing change

Root chakra healing is the base for all other healings. A healed root chakra helps a person feel stable, secure, safe and abundant. People who grew up in unsafe/narcissistic/dysfunctional environments need a lot of Mooladhar (Root) chakra healing. Whenever a person goes through change or a transformation, they require support. But unfortunately, for kids who grew up without a good support system, every change seemed like a threat. This triggers the person’s nervous system to go into ‘fight or flight’ mode. Even as an adult when this person faces any change in life, their body will remember and go into the same memory – mind, body state which they used to be as a child. But healing this is possible in many ways. One way is through music and musical instruments.

‘Shehnai’ is a musical instrument which is said to heal a person’s Mooladhar (Root) chakra. It is commonly played at weddings. Recently, I heard a song which has a great piece of shehnai instrument playing. The rest of the song is wonderful as well, sung by the amazing singer Atif Aslam (hits all the high notes beautifully). It is an OST for a new Pakistani drama. Below is the song and a translation of the lyrics in English.

P.S.: For all those who don’t know Shehnai’s sound, it plays in the middle of the song @ 1:53.

Translation of lyrics in English :

There is love, there is passion

Or is this the wonder of bliss

What do you know of this

Oh ignorant sad life (of mine)

You are wonderful

That one who hasn’t met himself

How will he meet you?

He is ignorant and he is lost

How will he meet you?

You are in the city of your wishes

You are on the journey of your love

You are not aware of your existence

Or even bothered about it

Here and there, everywhere

Where are you going again?

Are you again looking for that

stone that is like a moon? (Metaphor for something that cannot be acquired)

Life – you have many faces

And every face has many colors

How do you expect to get flowers

When what you hold in your hands are stones

That which was never heard or told

An unheard life story

He isn’t bothered if he has a large travel party with him

Because he is the travel party even by himself

That one who hasn’t met himself

How will he meet you?

He is ignorant and he is lost

How will he meet you?

Here and there, everywhere

Where are you going again?

Are you again looking for that

stone that is like a moon? (Metaphor for something that cannot be acquired)

The wound is where the light entered me

Such mysteries have come to surface

These came and settled in my eyes

All the pains that my lips could not speak

Ebook

Heal with green – Healing for heart chakra

Being in a narcissistic situation results in imbalance in a person’s heart chakra. The heart chakra is a very important energy center in a human especially in an empaths’ body – because empaths live a lot through this center. I have a PDF ebook, 32 pages long and costs 10$ USD, which will help you understand and heal your heart chakra 💚 You can view it on your laptop, phone, tablet.

If you would like to purchase one, please email me : recoveryfromnarc@gmail.com. Here is a sneak peak of some pages. 🙏🏼💚

Ebook

A scapegoat’s guide to survive the holidays

Holidays are an odd and difficult time for scapegoated people, it can become a time of feeling extremely isolated and of many old wounds coming up. I have been through this feeling before and I wished for a book/guide that could make me feel understood and supported, so I made one 🙂 It is a 20-page PDF that you can view on your laptop, phone, tablet. The price is 7$ USD. I sincerely hope that the ebook makes the holiday time a little less heavy for you. 🙏🏼❤️

If you would like to purchase one, please email me : recoveryfromnarc@gmail.com. Here is a sneak peak of some pages.

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Inspired Paintings

Here are some beautiful paintings from a client – let’s call her ‘Janoo’. I am always excited when a client decides to express themselves creatively – this indicates to me that their energy is now flowing freely towards the throat chakra. This is a great blessing indeed.

Healing

Healing with darkness

Scorpio is a season to heal with the darkness. It is a season to dive deep into the depths of your madness, darkness, shadows and subconscious. Hitting rock bottom and staying there, getting rock bottom so imprinted on your heart that you can reach there in few seconds whenever you want to. The advantage of this practice is that once you know how to access your emotional rockbottom at will, you will be able to control all negative emotions and they won’t control you anymore. It means being intimate with the parts of you, that scare you the most. Just like the scorpion is comfortable living in cold, dark places where not many other creatures can survive. You will have befriended your demons, your shadows, the ones you ran from all your life. And what follows is a life of wholeness – where you can welcome darkness and light with equal love 🖤

Here is a beautiful song, by artist Lana Del Rey, perfect for the Scorpio season – of the old dying and the new beginning.

Some pictures to go with the song :

love · Poem · Poetry

Only love remains

What remains after we are dead and gone

Only love

What is true in this world of illusions

Only love

Trauma heals and transmutes into forgiveness

In this lifetime or the next

But when love touches someone

It cannot be undone

It transforms and heals all that is unloved

And only love remains

.

.

.

Park benches which give testimony of such love :

Healing · life · music · Poem · Poetry · Spiritual

When the mask slips…

For how long 

Do you plan to pretend?

For sooner or later

The mask always slips

The thousand masks

That you wear

Do not help hide

The ugliness from the Creator

For He always sees you

Completely naked

Like the day He created you

A perfect song to go with this poem (please turn on captions to understand the lyrics) :

Image source : https://discover.hubpages.com/health/Tactics-of-a-Narcissistic-Mother

Poem · Poetry

Letting go and ultimate freedom

Humans, since the day they are born are wired for attachment. Undo-ing this wiring takes a long time and many instances of separation that trigger the human’s need for this attachment. Many say that the original wound of separation happens when a life manifests from the formless (realm of pure light or unconditional love) into the realm of form, i.e., our world where things are perceived through the mind. Only after letting go of this attachment can a human again experience wholeness, a sense of being perfect, a sense of unconditional love, joy and peace. Here is a beautiful Sufi song, written by the famous Indian poet – Gulzar and sung by the amazing Rekha Bharadwaj. The song depicts loss, craving for the other after the separation and finally Grace descends on the ones who suffer and Grace enlightens them and takes them towards feeling the sense of union with the creator, with the formless – filing them with love, peace and joy. Hoping on this beautiful full moon day (it is a full moon while I write this) you are able to release all the energies that keep you from living your best possible life. Hoping everything that you need to release in order to live a life for your highest good, gets released today.

Lyrics :

Tere ishq mein, haay tere ishq mein
Raakh se ruukhi, koyale se kaali
Raat kate na, hizraan waali
Tere ishq mein, haay tere ishq mein

Teri justaju, karate rahe
Marate rahe, tere ishq mein
Tere ruu-ba-ru, baithe hue
Marate rahe, tere ishq mein

Tere ruu-ba-ru, teri justaju
Tere ishq mein, haay tere ishq mein

Baadal dhune, mausam bune
Sadiyaan ginin, lamhe chune
Lamhe chune, mausam bune
Kuchh garm the, kuchh gungune
Tere ishq mein, baadal dhune
Mausam bune, tere ishq mein

Tere ishq mein, haay haay tere ishq men

Tere ishq mein tanhaaiyaan, tanhaaiyaan tere ishq mein
Hamane bahut, bahalaaiyaan
Tanhaaiyaan, tere ishq mein
Ruuse kabhi, manawaaiyaan
Tanhaaiyaan, tere ishq mein

Mujhe toh kar, koi din gaya
Mujhe chhed kar, koyi shab gayi
Mainne rakh li saari aahatein
Kab aayi thi shab kab gayi
Tere ishq mein, kab din gaya
Shab kab gayi, tere ishq mein

Tere ishq mein, haay haay tere ishq mein

Raakh se ruukhi, dil sufi tha
Hum chal diye, jahaan le chala
Tere ishq mein, ham chal diye
Tere ishq mein, haay tere ishq mein

Translation :

In your love
Drier than ash, darker than coal
This night of separation doesn’t end
In your love
, in your love

I craved for you
I died, in your love
Sitting beside you
I died, in your love

Sitting beside you, I desired you
In your love, in your love

The clouds came singing, I knitted many seasons (waiting for you)
I counted centuries, I knitted many past moments from memory (waiting for you)
The clouds came singing, I knitted many seasons (waiting for you)
Some seasons were warm, some lukewarm
In your love, the clouds sang
I knit many seasons in your love

In your love, in your love

In your love there is loneliness, so much loneliness in your love
I have tried amusing myself so many times
So much loneliness in your love
Sometimes when I got angry, I consoled myself
So much loneliness in your love

Knocking me over (with sadness), some days passed me
Teasing me, an evening passed me
I have memorized all of your memories, even the sound of your footsteps
When did the day come (when you came) and when it went away (when you left)

In your love, in your love

More dry than ash, my heart was a Sufi (ascetic)
I started walking wherever it led me (towards you)
In your love, I started walking towards you
In your love, in your love